Becoming A Heroine

The radio is reading my thoughts again. I was just thinking about how I sometimes don’t have a lot of faith or hope in humanity. What if we don’t change and we self-destruct? There has been another school shooting. There are some massive terrorists out there. Narcissism and vanity surround me in what’s supposed to be the “City of Angels.” I get down sometimes. I hurt. I feel like I can’t make the difference I want to make. And the loneliness hits my heart.

Then my Conscious Rockstar kicks in. She loves unconditionally and doesn’t let me stay in my self-imposed pity party. She reminds me to keep on keeping on. She tells me to fight the good fight, not because I have to see the outcomes I want but because I chose to come here to play my part in raising consciousness.

When I fall into this ditch of negative thinking she nudges me. She pokes me like those annoying Facebook pokers. But she is truly my breath of fresh air. Without her I would most likely be lying in a grave somewhere. So I listen to her no matter what. She is always right and I’m grateful for that.

Then I hear my mom’s voice. “Honey, you may not get to see the change you want to see in your lifetime, but you move forward anyway. Be the change. You know how to do it.” More truth!

So then the last voice, the radio….. Mariah Carey comes on and sings her sweet melody of “Hero.”

Here are her lyrics…..

There's a hero If you look inside your heart You don't have to be afraid Of what you are There's an answer If you reach into your soul And the sorrow that you know Will melt away And then a hero comes along With the strength to carry on And you cast your fears aside And you know you can survive So when you feel like hope is gone Look inside you and be strong And you'll finally see the truth That a hero lies in you It's a long, road When you face the world alone No one reaches out a hand For you to hold You can find love If you search within yourself And the emptiness you felt Will disappear And then a hero comes along With the strength to carry on And you cast your fears aside And you know you can survive So when you feel like hope is gone Look inside you and be strong And you'll finally see the truth That a hero lies in you Lord knows Dreams are hard to follow But don't let anyone Tear them away Hold on There will be tomorrow In time you'll find the way And then a hero comes along With the strength to carry on And you cast your fears aside And you know you can survive So when you feel like hope is gone Look inside you and be strong And you'll finally see the truth That a hero lies in you That a hero lies in you That a hero lies in you

Whether you like her or not, you can’t argue with these lyrics. She gets it. Most likely she channeled these words from her own Conscious Rockstar.

I may feel the pain of humanity from time to time but I know I can also feel into the joy that is here, too. It just takes a moment to tap into the adorable baby animals, the smiling babies, the loving touch exchanged between couples, the people who serve others daily, and the brave pioneers starting new conscious companies that provide solutions.

And so with that, I’m out of the funk. My heart still huts a bit but I know how to be compassionate with myself. It can hurt and I can also take action. In fact the song on now is “Girl Is On Fire” by Alicia Keys – that’s me for sure. “Even though she is a lonely girl and it’s a lonely world, this girl is on fire! Time to keep fighting the good fight! Love will prevail. Love always wins. And so it is.